The last three weeks had been two-a-days. Now, I am supposed to take a break. This is a deload week. Simple, is it not? Apply mechanical and metabolic stress in a progressive way. Then, recover from it. That is how rational people think.
There is just one problem: It is the middle of deload week and I am loading up the bar for a 1RM Deadlift test. I grip the bar. I heave. I turn red. The damn thing refuses to move.
Again, simple problem with a simple solution. Recovery is necessary for adaptation. If one perceives the need to push during a deload week this is likely the result of a self-image issue. Take a deep breath and see the big picture.
That is exactly what an educated and mature strength and conditioning professional would do. Consequently, I throw a screaming bitch fit. It was the end of the world. The universe had conspired against me to miss the lift.
Accepting the journey is not a one-time event. Yes, one may have made a commitment to excellence. This does not mean the commitment will not be tested. I guarantee your resolve will be tried. You will get answers you need instead of answers you want along the way.
What was the answer I received that day? You cannot fight nature. Apply destructive stress. Allow the body to adapt. Accept the psychological impact of decreased activity on Type A personalities.
Did the bar move later? Yes, it did. The next week I hit full lock out. That day came with an added lesson: I found a new weak point.
The journey continues.